Hello again..

Uncategorized / Saturday, March 30th, 2013

Hello again. How are you? We are making it. I am sorry I have been absent for so long. I wish I could say it was because we were getting enough sleep and having amazing weather and just enjoying life. I can’t say that at all. We have been having a very rough time of it lately. Very tough. Really, a tough time since December-since the fateful Yorkshire Pudding incident of 2012. I have been sick. Q has been sick. J has been sick. The adults have been stressed. Ok, I have been stressed. The weather has been awful. I’ve been crying. A lot. We are on week 2 of a horrible cold and even worse cough. I think we have all had 5 nights (?) of decent, comfortable sleep since December. That is tough on anyone. J and I, mostly me, need more things to do that don’t revolve around Q. There is nothing wrong with spending lots of time with your children. However, for me, I think that it can become an obsession and not a good one. I need to have my down time so that I can be a better mumma to Q and a better wife to J. 

It hasn’t all been doom and gloom though. I have started a new book in the attempt to create more peace in our daily lives. Buddhism for Mothers: A Calm Approach to Caring for Yourself and Your Children is great so far. It teaches you how to be more mindful in your parenting-how to be more present, to just be. And isn’t that something that we all need in our busy, hectic lives? Isn’t that my mantra every day? Anything to help me achieve this is brilliant in my eyes. We have had Q in our lives for 14 months and I still need a rhythm. I know they change every day but sheesh, I should be a bit better by now, shouldn’t I? I can only say that I am trying-really, really trying.

I seem to have dropped the ball on my weekly picture series. Will try to catch up. I am sure J has taken pictures when I haven’t so I should be able to do a few posts. I may change the focus of this space but I am not sure yet. I don’t want it to become a place where I constantly apologise for not being around-I am going to actively start taking the time to be here. To be present. To be.