Oh 2019. You were a beast. Literally. You ripped me down and built me up to then rip me apart again. I am not the least bit sorry to see the back end of you and I know a lot of others are happy to see you go, too. It has been a great year of growth and understanding what I truly want. Figuring out WHO I want in my life and what I want to let go of.
I suppose my biggest take away is that I really should honour my intuition and how I feel in any given situation. I shouldn’t do something just because it’s ‘expected’ or ‘would be the nice thing to do’. I have certainly learned that others look out for themselves and only themselves more often than not and that I should really feel into my gut to see how it feels to say yes. I am much happier that way and you know what? If those people who I say no to don’t like it, I am probably a happier person without them around…
Failures-I don’t feel I’ve had ‘failures’ to speak. I’ve definitely had a LOT of confusion this year. A lot of not knowing my purpose. I’ve had a lot of awakenings when it comes to how I can create my income and what is ‘ok’. How that ideal only lived in my head and certainly can be tweaked. I feel like I have had a lot of revelations in the last 4 months of the decade and they have opened my eyes immensely. I am pretty happy with what has come about. And all that will come in 2020.
I know one thing for certain though. My priorities on how I want to live my life in 202 have definitely shifted. I know who I want in my life and I know who I don’t. I want honest people who want to be my friend for the right reasons. I don’t need to spend time wanting to befriend people who don’t want to be my friend. I am important. I am kind. And I deserve that in return.
I will spend more time making MYSELF happy. If I am not happy, how the heck can anyone else be? I don’t think modern life boasts happiness as a priority but it bloody should. I am tired of trying to work myself to the bone with not a lot to show for it. I want Q to understand that life should be enjoyed, not lived through stress and anxiety of a never-ending to-do list. I know I will spend A LOT of time feeling in 2020. It is all part of the vision I am casting…I’ll share that with you next week.